Arrggg

This is just one of those things I hate. I think Timo Cruz from Coach carter captured it nicely.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond imagination. It is our light more than our darkness which scares us."

But nevermind that, I hate being ahead when I'm not trying to be. It's like being the kid that scores a 2390 on the SAT's who nobody wants to talk to anymore, because they have done greater than everybody else. Or the guy that uses 6 syllable words regurly in his speech. Nobody really likes these people simply because they're ahead.

I'm not trying to say that im better than anybody else, but I don't like being ahead in things. Not that it isnt good, but i really dont like it when nobody else is with me. I feel all by myself and everyone else is outside and i dont like it that;s all.
If you guys dont know what im talking abotu im talking about college letters, the last week i felt like has sucked because I already got 3 letters and accepted to 2 schools while other people havent even heard yet, and I'm getting like this like envy hate thing, and I'm all like accept now accept later is still an acception, you know what i mean?

I just dont want to talk about any college stuff anymore, I'm done, atleast till everyone can participate in these conversations

2008 Gone

2008 is gone, im like a little late but whatever, it was quite an interesting year, and new stuff is coming along and it's exciting and scary. I wish i knew where destiny is taking me. College letters rolling in, school year winding down, snow melting away. Ok, I had like a strange like emotional rollercoaster during the last like 4 months of '08; it was very strange but i want to give credit to my friends and Akon for helpin me pull through, actually there was only one real low point but it was a very steep drop, it was like the price of oil $140/barrel to $43/barrel in two weeks. I recovered though.
Akon helped i wanna give credits to that song. It was "Dont Matter" i heard it while on somebody's iPod and i was like s*#t i'm not giving up that easy, nothing is gonna seperate me from what I want, I'm gonna fight for my rights. It was kinda dumb though now that i think about it, I was upset because I really wanted to goto Quinnipiac, but i dont know waht happened, and i managed to put myself in a postition with 0 chance of going, but i changed that around cause of the song. It was pretty intense.

As some of you know though, it's like this. I'm one for two. Eight more to go.